The Pondering Grapefruit
a blog of moments
Fact: Cells are always trying to each a state of equilibrium. Yet, the moment a cell reaches equilibrium, it is dead.
I think there is something to be learned from this–similar to the way a cell will never be at equilibrium until it is dead, our lives are never truly quiet until the moment we are dead. Just as Heidegger said–we are daseins whose every moment of being is a process of dying. Life isn’t about achieving that final piece. It is change itself that drives life. Change is the motion of life. Our bodies, our organs, each individual cell constantly faces new obstacles, whether it is adjusting the pH of its inner fluids or extracting waste materials from its core.
It must acquire new materials to build new components–DNA, proteins, ribosomes–and accept molecular signals from other different parts of the body. As long as the cell is alive, it cannot rest. True equilibrium cannot exist along with life, just as absolute zero does not have any capability to sustain life.
The struggles that we encounter are not hindrances to life, but rather just a part of them. I sometimes find myself very tired from the never ending list of tasks and deadlines that keep coming up. It is hard to keep myself sane and stable amid the disruptions that occur. I am always trying to stay on top of things, to keep myself together.
But the truth is, I am never quite fully together because there will always be things to do, more ways in which I could grow. I will never be at equilibrium--I may get close, but I will never stay there.
The biological basis of life relies on the journey to sustain itself, and knowing that this mindset has roots in such a fundamental basis of science makes me feel reassured whenever I face new problems in my daily life. I am happy for the changes, good or bad. I am happy to always be changing, to always be growing.
About this Blog
I have no idea how to describe what my writing is about. I just write. I post when I can, which can be weekly or monthly depending on where the universe is taking me. As for the Grapefruit, my Vietnamese nickname, Buoi, means grapefruit.